When I love, I love really hard. And I’m all in. I expect a lot and I set the bar really high . Whether it’s mother-daughter, mother-son, friends, relatives, whatever it is, I will give everything I have—physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially, I’m in. When you love unconditionally, that’s a huge thing. Because that means that you love through anything. Love is a very powerful emotion, and it just doesn’t come and go for me. It’s like the perfect storm.
To me a matriarch is someone strong and powerful who has held her role for a long time. Matriach is a title that is earned. Most people would agree on that. But to me, it also represents something additional, something beyond most people’s definition. Being a matriarch is about being a leader, a protector, somebody who leads with love, someone who leads with a strong hand and tries to protect their kids at any cost. Someone who leads them to feel really good about themselves so that they can go out into the world and be the best that they can be.
Since I was a little girl, I always wanted to have a big family. I used to sit when I was in high school and think, I can’t wait to have six kids—I specifically said the number six. Now, when I see all of us and it’s Christmas Eve and we’re all cozy sitting around the tree sipping hot chocolate, I get so excited for my big happy family.
I think as I got older and grew up and had all these kids and all this responsibility, I just surrendered to my family, and all I ever wanted was for each and every one of them to be as content and happy and successful as possible—whatever that meant to them. It’s always been my mission in my life to work with my kids—which is the biggest blessing—and to be able to focus on each one of them, helping them to be successful in business or find the love of their life or raise their own children and build their own families. Walking this path with them, I make sure they know that they’re loved unconditionally.
Kim is an extremely emotional person who’s so full of love and affection for me, and for her kids, and her husband, and her sisters, and brother. But she’s strong and calm in the midst of a storm. She’s like the one we all run to asking, “What the heck just happened?” I’ve learned a lot from her. Khloe, has always made fun of me, like, “Oh my God, Mom’s gonna cry again.” They laugh at me because I used to cry a lot more often than I do now. Sometimes I’ll get through a day and I’ll pull it together and be really strong for someone else. That gives me strength—when somebody else needs me. When I’m needed, I’m at my best. When I’m not needed, I get restless. I get anxious. I want my kids to need me because it gives me purpose. I’m the captain of the ship. So it’s my responsibility to make sure everybody’s okay.
Things happen in life. You just have to trust that you’ve made a really good decision in who you invest your emotional energy into. And if that doesn’t happen to work out, you have to be smart enough, strong enough, and emotionally stable enough to make a change. You can get hurt, but that’s human behavior. And even in hurt you can find gratitude. I am so grateful and appreciative of every single thing—good and bad—that has happened to me and to us. And I think my kids feel the same way.
Human behavior is fascinating. Some people can’t handle what I have to give. I am very emotional—I can get hurt and I can cry. That pain is real, but it used to be a lot harder. I’ve lost people that I loved, and still love, very much. I’ve been disappointed in friendships over the years. But I think that I’ve learned how to be stronger for my family when I need to be. At the end of the day, the reason we are so tight-knit is because there’s nothing that can get through that coat of armor. There’s just nothing. I love my family so hard that there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for them.
We share a mutual approval over each other’s lives. Each of us has a different unspoken, unrehearsed, and unplanned role in the family. We’re all such different human beings that happen to mesh together really nicely and help each other get through some of life’s biggest trials. We give and receive and we collaborate. I think that’s our magic. My kids get what I’m trying to give, generationally. They recognize that what we’ve gone through and experienced and our story is very special. They’re grateful for it. That’s the perfect storm in us.
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PHOTOGRAPHS: HEJI SHIN
FASHION: RON HARTLEBEN
SET DESIGN: NICHOLAS FAIELLA
HAIR FOR KIM: CHRIS APPLETON
MAKEUP FOR KIM: MARY PHILIPS
HAIR FOR KOURTNEY: CESAR RAMIREZ
MAKEUP FOR KOURTNEY: WENDI MIYAKE
HAIR FOR KHLOE: CESAR RAMIREZ
MAKEUP FOR KHLOE : HRUSH ACHEMYAN
HAIR FOR KENDALL: JEN ATKIN
MAKEUP FOR KENDALL: MARY PHILIPS
HAIR FOR KYLIE: JESUS GURRERO
MAKEUP FOR KYLIE: ARIEL TEJADA
HAIR FOR KRIS: CLYDE HAYGOOD
MAKEUP FOR KRIS: ASHLEY K HOLM
PRODUCTION: CR STUDIO
ON SET PRODUCTION: JN PRODUCTION
MANICURES: MODERN PAMPER SALON
TAILORS: KEKE CHENG, CRISTINA PADILLA
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